I crashed last night, I was so exhausted! When Trevor went to sleep and we went to bed, I slept pretty hard and had very bizarre dreams. I woke up at 2am to pump and crashed again. Bill took care of feeding Trevor at 4am and 8am and I slept right through. Thanks Bill!! I really really needed that.
I gave Trevor a long bath and had a nice breakfast and then headed to the hospital to see Brendan. Starting yesterday, he was seeming to feel happier, but he was having trouble keeping his oxygen saturation up. Today was the same story, I walked in and they were giving him a pressure treatment. His chest xray showed some area in his left lung that looked bad so they started antibiotics and put him on contact isolation again just in case it was a viral infection. They are very paranoid about that for good reason. They did some more blood work to check for signs of infection and to look at blood gas and CBC numbers.
Once the blood test results came back, the answer was obvious. His white cell count was normal, most numbers were looking really good but his hemoglobin was low. They have taken so much blood for testing after his event on Thursday that he was just depleted. So they ordered him a transfusion. Once he has more oxygen carriers in his blood again, keeping his sats up should be a lot easier! The hazy area in his lung is just a result of his ongoing lung issue and his current treatments will help that.
I held him for a long time this afternoon. Keeping him mostly on his tummy helped him breathe more easily.

He was having a really good day, even with low sats.

Then I went to the airport and picked up a special visitor to see him – Gramma is back in town!

By the time we got back to the hospital, Brendan had just had his breathing treatments. One of his inhalers makes him get really loopy. He trembles and is wide awake and acts like a happy spazz drunk. It is amusing and a bit sad at the same time. But it is fun to see him happy! (Even blowing tons of bubbles) He especially liked his cute redhead nurse today, and saved all of his smiles and coos for her! I told her that he was flirting!
He did save some of his hyper smiles for Gramma too!
When we got home, we didn’t even let Gramma take her bags in to her room, we put her right to work with Trevor! He was going to make her feel bad and he cried when she first picked him up, but he was just needing to burp really badly. Once that was out of the way, it was back to old times, smiling and happy Trevor. She even got his first real giggle out of him!





That last pic of Trevor is great and gramma looks beautifully happy to see him…..I will look up a place to donate when I get to work today. Thanks for reminding some of us it has been a long time since we gave the gift of life…V
I don’t know if it’s the drugs, or if Brendan has accepted the idea that he needs the tubes, and tape, and wires for at least a while longer, or if he has learned the meaning of hope. The cold stare seems to be gone from his eyes, it’s a joy to see. Happy to see Gramma got there safe too.
Love,
Dad
Everybody gets to take “happy” drugs sometimes! It is so nice that Brendan seems to be in a better place and you got to hold him for so long. Way to go Bill on your husband/daddy duties! It’s amazing what one extra 4 hour stretch of sleep can do for you. I think the boys are happy to see Gramma because they know they have someone new that falls for their charms. Just wait until they are old enough to run around and talk!