It was just one of those days around here. When everyone is healthy and things are going well, I guess I set an expectation that the day will be fun and productive. I stayed up with Brendan last night and only got sleep in 15-30 minute patches all through the night. The moment I would lay my head down and close my eyes, something would beep or buzz or Brendan would turn and get all tangled. He was very active in his sleep last night.
I can’t count the number of times I dropped something, broke something or did something wrong today. I was clumsy, tired and crabby.
Bill tried to help by taking Trevor out on an outing. They went to a plumbing supply store and then ended up at a park Bill used to go to as a kid.
Everything today was a battle. I couldn’t let my guard down for a second, the boys were climbing on to precarious perches, throwing train buildings, hitting each other, trying to get to the electrical outlets under the vent, spilling everything they could. There wasn’t a moment to breathe.
I tried to take Trevor out front to play in his sandbox. If I even turned my head, he was taking the shovel and eating mouthfuls of sand. He seemed to like it. But almost everything I put on his tray for meals got thrown or fed to the dogs.
If they weren’t fighting over the iPad, they were trying to stand on it. I don’t know how we will survive the terrible twos at this rate.
Needless to say, I didn’t take pictures, our hands were full.
I can’t have a no-Brendan picture day, so here is a cute spy cam shot.
Wow! Maybe this was your delayed Friday the 13th! I am so sorry to hear what a difficult and frustrating night and day you all had. 🙁
I’m not sure why some days just seem to be that way. Hopefully it was just “one of those days”, and today will be be better. I hope you got more sleep last night. Brendan’s spy cam picture looks like he was sleeping peacefully, he must have been worn out, too.
Kids go through all kinds of phases, they’ll eat well, then not eat well. They play nice, then don’t play nice. They do naughty things, then turn into little angels. It has nothing to do with what you are doing or not doing. I know it doesn’t help for me to sound like a broken record when I say “it will get better”, but it will. It is so hard when you are going through it. You are exhausted, frustrated, helpless to change it, and feel like it will never ever end. Your two beautiful, smart, amazing little boys won’t remember a thing about the the long sleepless nights, or the hard work you put in and endless stress you feel…but you will. You will also know when things get better what an amazing job you did to get through it, and the sacrifices you made for your family, and you can be proud…VERY PROUD.
This blog will surely be a way that the boys will know some day that they had the most amazing and devoted parents any kid could wish for. Your love and caring is endless, your hard work and determination to raise your sons in the very best way possible is admirable. You are doing everything right!
You were dealt a difficult hand to play. You are doing a remarkable job. There are so many people who care so much, and like me, feel so helpless to make it easier for you. I know how it feels to feel alone and isolated when you’re struggling.
I know many many people read the blog. You need a few more “likes” just like people get on Facebook! It always helps to feel supported.
Hang in there. I love you all so very much. I can’t wait to see you. 🙂
In the meantime, give those adorable little boys big hugs and kisses from me. I’m sending some for you and Bill, too. I can’t say it enough, all my children and grandchildren are the greatest joy and blessings in my life. That is the greatest love of all,
Mom (Gramma)