Now that we have wrapped up week 13 and a partial day, the boys are officially 1.25 years old. I can not even believe that 1/4 of the second year is already gone. They will be terrible twos in a blink!!

Brendan was noticeable better today. He was more mellow when awake, he would not startle and cry at every noise. He slept a little more, but his sleep is still restless and broken. He occasionally wakes in a bad panic.
He did not cry during his bath tonight, which he has done all week. He is still very sensitive on his skin. The lotion massage after his bath was always a good thing, now he hates it. He still makes crazy eyes and gets lost kind of spaced out in a zone for a while.
He is playing more and laughing more. He just looks a little wild when laughing!

One of the games he loves to play is peek under/peek over the crib rail. Back and forth, he will play for a long time. He likes to “accidentally” drop toys through the slot under the rail too.

He is back to laughing at loud noises instead of cringing.

Trevor was a little stinker today. He was a mix of playful, happy, tired, crabby, sad, naughty, whiney, and screaming. He ran through the whole spectrum all during dinner.

It was a long day. We have another sick nurse with a fever and cold/flu symptoms. Her shift is being covered tonight but most likely not tomorrow. I hope the boys are good to us.

I suppose if each day keeps getting just a tiny bit better, than eventually we will get to the right place. Brendan had some better times today but he is still having such a horrible time in general. The biggest problem is that he just isn’t sleeping and he is so extra sensitive and everything is a bit overdramatic.

Trevor doesn’t seem to notice anything is different. He is just doing his own thing. He would not eat the little bites of apple that I cut up and cooked for him. He wanted to take bites himself like a big boy.

He got too messy at lunch and had to spend the rest of the day in pajamas. He had a very important essay to work on, so it was good that he was comfortable.

Brendan did smile and play some today, but his little eyes are so tired.

We just let him relax and watch a few movies.

Trevor enjoyed watching “The Lion King”

After avoiding a nap all day, I gave up trying and put Brendan on his tummy to play. He was not especially happy but he got in to it for a while. And then he must have just hit his wall because he just closed his eyes and was out.

Shame this little catnap only lasted about 15 minutes and he was up again.

He is sleeping on the floor next to me with a lullaby playing. Any tiny little noise will wake him. Good thing Trevor is in bed!

I appreciate everyone’s comments and support very much. We are all feeling exhausted and yet each day brings new challenges.

Brendan’s day was marginally better than yesterday. He did not cry as hard when startled, he had some small happy times. But mostly, it was the same struggle. He just can not sleep. He is awake now with Bill and just can’t get comfortable. He lies down, then sits up, cries, lies down, rubs his eyes, sits up. He just can’t get rest. He wants to sleep but he won’t sit still for a minute.

He took a couple of tiny naps today but mostly we just tried to allow him to rest. He was ok on a pillow watching some Yo Gabba Gabba for a while.

He needs sleep!

I sometimes could catch him smiling, but it wouldn’t last. Just the wrong look or sound and he was crying again.

Trevor took a very short nap today too so he was a little cranky. But he had a mostly good day. He loves the “Trevor, where is your belly button?” game.

And because we all need the smile for today…

update at 10:55PM… finally asleep