Brendan had a pretty average day today. He was kept comfortable with chemistry.
I spent a lot of time at the hospital talking to him and trying to keep the drug doses further apart by keeping him happy.

He got some morphine right as I got there so slept while I made a ton of phone calls.

A little later he had Ativan again. They recalculated all of his drug doses for his adjusted weight today, so it was a bit stronger than it has been. He was feeling pretty cozy.

He might seem awake and happy, but this tells the real story. The eyes are open, but Brendan isn’t really there.

Video evidence!!!!! At the very end, watch as I back away from him. He watches me leave. I hide from view and within seconds, he has a full grip on his feeding tube and I have to drop the camera to stop him from pulling it out. He spends 4 solid minutes petting his lion, and the moment he knows I am not watching him, he goes for the tubes.

I have had technical issues tonight, as well as some work to do, so timing didn’t work out for taking new Trevor pictures. He is rocking in his swing, sound asleep now. So I share this video from earlier that I don’t think I shared of Trevor having dreams about his bottle.